[narrator] Previously on Grey's Anatomy:
Divorce papers.
The baII's in your court. If you sign, I'II be on the first pIane out.
WouId you Iike to go out with me tonight?
The hospitaI grants you four months to retake the exam.
If I don't pass a second time?
You wiII no Ionger be a surgicaI resident.
- You Iook great. - Thanks.
- Are you OK? - You ready to go?
- I didn't Iie. - You withheId the truth.
- Had I known you were pregnant... - You broke off with me.
- Dr. Yang! - Cristina!
[Addison] It's an extrauterine pregnancy. She's bIeeding out.
- [EIIis] I'm not supposed to be here. - [Richard] No, you're not.
I don't want someone who doesn't want me,
but if there's the sIightest chance that he does, I'm not Ieaving SeattIe.
[Meredith] Pain comes in all forms.
I had a good time. ReaIIy. Thank you.
It was the perfect evening. Best date ever.
- Whatever. - Izzie.
I especiaIIy Iiked the part where you treated me Iike crap the entire night.
- That was fun. - I had a good time.
- ReaIIy? - Yeah.
The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain.
The normal pains we live with every day.
I gotta go.
SeriousIy?
Then there's the kind of pain we can't ignore.
SeriousIy?
A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else.
- [George] I'm sIeeping. - Oh, shut it.
Shut...
Makes the rest of the world fade away.
- [Meredith] I don't want to taIk. - [Derek] Meredith...
You didn't sign the divorce papers. Fine. End of discussion.
- Meredith... - What?
Until all we can think about is how much we hurt.
I usuaIIy just say ''Meredith'' then you yeII at me.
I haven't thought past that point.
I actuaIIy didn't have anything pIanned.
- How we manage our pain is up to us. - What is that? Hey. Stop it.
SeriousIy? SeriousIy!
SeriousIy!
This is a very smaII bed.
He's a brain surgeon.
I Iook fantastic. I shaved my Iegs.
He's a brain surgeon. How can he be so brainIess?
- HeIIo? SeriousIy! - SeriousIy!
- Shh. SIeep. - [thunder]
Pain.
- We anesthetize,... - [Iights pop]
ride it out, embrace it, ignore it...
And for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.
- You're dripping. - I'm back.
I just want to make that cIear. I'm ready to work.
- Has anyone seen Dr. Shepherd? - His name's on the OR board.
- He shouId be here somewhere. - I'm good. Ready to scrub in.
- I'm 1 00% on top of my game. - You just got discharged.
- Pace yourseIf. - I'm paced. I'm paced.
Rounds, peopIe.
What? You're not taIking to me anymore?
OK, what happened Iast night? What is going on with you?
I'm fine.
- What's your probIem? - [snorts]
Fine. You know what, AIex? No, I'm not taIking to you anymore.
[pager beeps]
Dr. BaiIey.
Henry Lamott, age 42, is scheduIed with Dr. Shepherd for a spinaI impIant
to controI the pain of his herniated disk.
Is aIIergic to aII pain medication...
- Is that...? - Porn.
Porn?
- As in porn? - AII right.
- What are we watching? - Karev. Go stand in the haII.
Mr. and Mrs. Lamott, I'm sure you are reaIIy nice peopIe,
and what you do in the privacy of your own...
Look, we can't have porn in here. This is a hospitaI.
It's for my pain. My doc said it reIeases endorphins in the brain
and heIps keep my pain at a manageabIe IeveI.
- ReaIIy? - George. HaII.
[TV: woman moans]
- What is this? - Nasty, Naughty Nurses... 4.
[TV: women giggle]
- That does not Iook comfortabIe. - Trust me. It's not.
Get in the haII.
[# Psaap: Crazy in the Rocket]
[BaiIey] O'MaIIey, Karev, you're in the Pit.
Stevens, there's a cardiac patient for you on two.
Yang, keep an eye on the Lamotts. I don't want any probIems. Go.
Grey, your mother's being discharged this evening.
- You've made arrangements? - The nursing home is coming at eight.
Then you're with Shepherd, Derek Shepherd, today.
Hey, Iife is short. Times are hard.
The road is Iong with many a winding turn.
He asked for you. Take it up with him.
OK.
Pete WiIIoughby, 25-year-oId, GSW to the chest.
- Return of 860 cc's of bIood... - Oh, damn, this hurts.
He's put out more than 200 cc's over the past hour.
Movies never say how much it hurts to get shot.
Push morphine, two miIIigrams. AIex, this is my case.
Morphine, five miIIigrams.
- You didn't caII him. - I was here first.
You got her first because I Iet you. Where's the chest fiIms?
I got it. You aIways get the surgery. Today, I'm getting a surgery.
Guys. Knock it off. He's one of SeattIe's finest.
You've got an entire poIice force watching you.
[George] Page Dr. Burke.
- Let him know I'm bringing up a GSW. - ''We'' are bringing up a GSW.
Looks Iike you'II be abIe to go home today, EIIis.
- But I stiII have patients to see. - No. No more patients.
I'II be back to check on you Iater, OK?
You shouId know I'm thinking of Ieaving Thatcher.
I shouId never have married him.
I'II Ieave him. You Ieave AdeIe.
Then when our residency's over we can both get jobs at the same hospitaI.
Why don't you get her meds ready for discharge, nurse? Thank you.
[woman on PA]
[distant siren]
EIIis, that was a Iong time ago, remember?
We had this discussion 21 years ago.
Think about it. We shouId make the break now.
If we wait tiII residency's over, you'II be at one hospitaI, I'II be in another.
We couId end up at opposite ends of the country. It'II be too Iate.
[beII dings]
- Meredith. - Your wife is Iooking for you.
Oh, my God, this is hard for me, Meredith.
Let me make it easy. I'm not going to be that woman.
The one who breaks up a marriage or begs you to want me.
You can sign the papers or you can not. The choice is yours.
Either way, when it comes to this reIationship, I'm out.
Now, where's this patient I'm supposed to be heIping you with?
Down there.
You shouIdn't have waIked the dog in the rain.
Oh, Lou, it wasn't the rain. I just passed out.
- ActuaIIy, Mrs. BradIey... - Verna.
Verna. You presented with IateraI ST eIevations
and reciprocaI inferior changes consistent with an MI.
- A heart attack. - [Lou] Oh, my God.
Lou, don't worry.
I've had IittIe chest pains before and it turned out to be nothing.
This is nothing.
Lou, not in front of the doctor.
[woman] I've had a twinge in my back for a whiIe.
I thought it wouId go away, but then Iast night, my Iegs went numb.
This morning, my back... The pain is just too much.
Miss Chue, we'II put you on a PCA pump, give you morphine to controI the pain.
- Thank you. - OK. But there's a greater probIem.
- I've just Iooked at your MRI... - Anna!
- Why didn't you caII us before coming? - I'm sorry. These are my parents.
- Hi. - What's going on?
Anna's MRI has shown that she has a myxopapiIIary ependymoma.
It's a tumor in her spinaI canaI.
But the good news is that we can operate.
You have a 95% chance of fuIIy recovering
if we get you to surgery as soon as possibIe.
We can't wait. With a tumor this aggressive
even waiting another day puts you at risk for permanent paraIysis.
Father?
No. No surgery.
Mr. Chue, without surgery, Anna wiII be paraIyzed within the next 24 hours.
No surgery today. We're taking her home.
- Anna needs surgery. - She can have it another time.
- Mr. Chue... - We are taking our daughter home.
Anna, you're over 1 8. You don't need your father's consent.
I'm Hmong, and my father is the eIder.
If he says I go home, I go home.
Hmong? Let's find out what that means.
Contact SociaI Services, see if we can get somebody to taIk to them.
- Do I process her discharge? - Yeah. It's insane, but we have to.
It reminds me of a case I had in New York where a woman...
Look, do you need me for anything eIse work-reIated?
Look. I was married for 1 1 years. Addison is my famiIy.
That is 1 1 Thanksgivings, 1 1 birthdays, and 1 1 Christmases.
In one day, I'm supposed to sign a piece of paper and end my famiIy?
A person doesn't do that. Not without hesitation.
I'm entitIed to a IittIe uncertainty. A moment to understand the magnitude
of what it means to cut somebody out of my Iife.
- I'm entitIed to at Ieast one moment... - [door opens]
...of painfuI doubt.
And a IittIe understanding from you wouId be nice.
- Dr. Shepherd. StiII here, I see. - I couIdn't Ieave you.
- Have you seen the other Dr. Shepherd? - I'II teII him you're Iooking for him.
- So, thanks for, you know, being there. - No thanks needed.
- OK. - So where are we?
The north-east corner of a hospitaI.
- Oh, I'm getting back on my feet. - Fine.
- That doesn't mean that... - Cristina...
- It's my first day back, I've got... - I'm not waiting forever.
[elevator bell]
Karev and O'MaIIey are bringing a GSW. Want to scrub in?
No can do. I'm trying to get out of here at a decent hour tonight.
- What, you got a date? - Yes. Yes, I do.
A handsome man is whisking me away to a Iove nest for the weekend.
You got shot in the Iine of duty?
First month on the job. Can you beIieve my Iuck?
Guy puIIs a gun and I freeze up.
The rookie who Iet himseIf get shot.
- I'm never gonna Iive this down. - Sure, you wiII.
You think?
AbsoIuteIy.
[elevator bell]
Hey, I got Verna BradIey's tests back.
I don't think she had a heart attack.
Look at the changes in her EKG. She had something.
Her seriaI enzymes and dobutamine stress echo were negative.
- I actuaIIy think she's fine. - Get a cardiac cath. Be thorough.
I am thorough.
- [AIex] What's the deaI with Izzie? - She shaved her Iegs for you.
- And? - You didn't even kiss her good night.
- You didn't foIIow through? - Hey, I aIways foIIow through.
- You didn't Iast night. - Mind your own business.
Mind...
She had expectations. Women have expectations. And you didn't meet them.
I Iive with these women.
When you guys don't meet their expectations, I hear about it.
I didn't get any sIeep Iast night.
So, you know, it is my business.
[cIattering]
[monitor beeps]
- Dude, we're not moving. - ReaIIy! You think?
[wheezes]
[woman on PA] Dr. Cole, 262 1. Dr. Cole, 262 1.
[Iights fizz]
[groans]
You know how Iong the surgicaI scar takes to heaI.
You must be in pain. You shouId take something.
- Drugs are for babies. - I hate AIex.
- And the non sequitur award goes to... - I'm sorry. I hate AIex.
- I broke up with Derek. - Burke wants to have a reIationship.
Boys are stupid.
[woman on PA]
Yep.
[George] ''If eIevator shouId stop, do not become aIarmed.''
''Press the button marked 'aIarm' for assistance.''
If they don't want us to be aIarmed,
- why caII the button ''aIarm''? - That didn't work the Iast five times.
- We've Iost power. We're stuck. - [Pete groans]
You OK?
His pressure is faIIing.
AIex, there's a Iot more of his bIood in the PIeurovac.
- We need to get him to the OR. - OK. Don't whisper.
I don't want to compIain, but I got a buIIet in my chest
and whispering isn't a sign that I'm going to be A-OK, you know?
- Damn it. It's out. - It's bad. It's bad, right?
Someone is going to get us out of here. Don't worry.
- How we doing? - Can you move me to another room?
- The Iights and TV went out. - Power outage in the east wing.
They'II have it back on soon.
- You're not criticaI. You'II be fine. - Oh, God! What am I gonna do?
- You mean... - Without my porn.
Read a book. TaIk to your wife.
SchooI cIosed earIy because of the storm.
She had to pick up the kids. She won't be back untiI after dinner.
WeII, I'm sure you can find some normaI way of amusing yourseIf.
- I need my porn! - Yeah.
[Addison] Lightning hit a substation.
We're running on backup generators. One of them is down. Richard, breathe.
The onIy means of transporting patients from the ER to the OR isn't working.
Don't teII me to breathe. I'II breathe if I want to breathe.
- [man] Caught between fIoors. - How bad is it?
- Two interns and a GSW to the chest. - Good air in, bad air out.
Come on, peopIe, get those doors open.
- [man] It's jammed. It won't open. - [BaiIey] Move.
- This is as wide as it goes. - What... What did you two do?
Nothing.
- How's the patient? - He's not Iooking so good.
[thunder]
[Iights fizz]
- Why do the Iights keep fIickering? - Something about a backup generator.
This pump wiII provide you with a morphine drip and shouId stop your pain.
I toId you, I don't need it. I'm going home.
You'II have to sign a form stating that you're Ieaving against medicaI advice.
Fine.
I know this is new and confusing.
I caIIed a sociaI worker and she's wiIIing to taIk to you...
Spare me the white-girI, cuIturaI-divide Iove.
I grew up down the street. I pIay in a band. I went to U-Dub.
I get it. But my father doesn't.
He says no, it's no.
We're taIking about your abiIity to ever waIk again.
That's what you're taIking about. I'm taIking about my famiIy.
Have you even heard of the Hmong peopIe?
Our reIigion has got ruIes that are way oId
and way set in stone and way spirituaI and you don't mess with them.
You don't anger the ancestors.
Even if you pierce your tongue and pIay in a band.
What are the ruIes, exactIy?
ICU patients are going to the south wing.
TeIemetry and stepdown patients, north wing.
- You paged me. - Porn as pain management?
You met Henry. There are Iots of theories on how to treat pain.
Porn as pain management?
It's possibIe pornography can stimuIate the brain
to produce endorphins that minimize pain.
- Porn as pain management. - I didn't prescribe it. It wasn't me.
Take it up with the physician.
If he turns out to be some sex weirdo, it's on you. That's aII I'm saying.
- Oh, and your wife is Iooking for you. - I know.
- Derek. - Yes?
TaIk to Anna's father. I'd do it myseIf but having testicIes is a requirement.
- What happened to SociaI Services? - According to Anna, they can't heIp us.
Anna's father beIieves she's missing something she needs for surgery.
- Missing something? Missing what? - One of her souIs.
We don't need a sociaI worker. We need a shaman.
Shaman?
Cardio teIIs me your cath went just fine.
- Is that much bruising normaI? - Your wound Iooks good.
So do the resuIts on your cath. You have no bIockages in your arteries.
- Which means? - You did not have a heart attack.
[both chuckIe]
- So I can go home? - Not yet.
Your EKG shows significant changes.
And I'm going to find out why before you Ieave the hospitaI.
- Hey, Pete, what are you doing? - I have to get home.
- Pete, you're in the hospitaI. - Need to get home. Need to get home.
- What's his bIood pressure? - It's not reading. He's too agitated.
- How's his puIse? - Thready, but stiII there.
- Do you have instruments? - A code box and gIoves.
You didn't bring an open chest tray?
- We thought... - No time for excuses.
- BIood pressure. - I've taken it three times.
- And? - I can't hear a systoIic over 50.
He's gonna die.
[Pete groans]
- Intubate him. I'II be back. - Where are you going?
To get an instrument tray. You guys are going to have to open up his chest.
[Pete groans]
- Are you sure about that? - No.
When's Burke coming back?
[distant thunder]
When is Dr. Burke coming back?
- AIex... - Oh, wouId you shut up?
[thunder]
Mr. Chue. You want to take Anna home for a heaIing rituaI?
When sickness comes, it means that one of our souIs is missing.
Anna needs to have her souIs intact before surgery.
- She needs a shaman. - WeII, you couId have toId me that.
Why? So you couId caII me a fooI?
I respect that you have traditions that I can't understand.
But you're standing beside me in a $3,000 suit
so I know you respect that I'm teIIing you
Anna needs surgery in the next 24 hours if she's going to continue to waIk.
She can't Ieave this hospitaI.
She can't undergo surgery without her souI. She'd die.
AII right then.
We're just gonna have to get a shaman. Today. In the hospitaI.
Shamans aren't in the YeIIow Pages.
Our shaman is 500 miIes from here. You are an arrogant man.
No. I'm just a guy with access to a heIicopter.
Thank you.
- Finding her souI won't be easy. - It never is.
[Richard] This is unconscionabIe. Not enough power to move those eIevators?
They're repIacing the backup. Fire department is standing by.
- CriticaI patients? - Moved to south wing.
- Incoming trauma? - Rerouted to Mercy West.
- That backup shouId have been repIaced. - Yes, sir.
- Why didn't it happen? - Chief, you'd have to ask maintenance.
- I wouIdn't know. - Dr. BaiIey, you know everything.
TeII me whose butt to kick.
That wouId be your butt, Chief.
You didn't authorize the repIacement generator,
saving money for the new MRI machine.
Um...
I need to get on back down to the... OR.
[monitor beeps]
Hey, this isn't gonna be too steriIe, but we can stiII try.
Prep and drape the patient.
[thunder]
Can you get me copies of aII Verna BradIey's records and page me?
- I'II be on the OR fIoor. - [PA] Dr. Bennett...
Hey! Wait... Where are you two going so fast?
Burke is taIking George and AIex through heart surgery in the eIevator.
Shepherd's setting up a shaman heaIing rituaI.
Rock on.
I have porn guy.
[Mr. Lamott] HeIp! PIease!
Mr. Lamott? What's wrong?
Your pressure's eIevated.
PuIse is racing. You're reaIIy in pain.
What? Do you think?
Are you teIIing me the porn actuaIIy sedated you?
You think I'm a pervert, watching that stuff in front of you?
WeII... yes.
OK, OK.
[sighs] You're aIIergic to most narcotics and NSAIDs.
I suppose we can try droperidoI and diphenhydramine.
That put me into a coma Iast year.
WeII, I can get an anesthesioIogist down here.
But with your surgery tomorrow, he won't give you an epiduraI bIock.
- What am I gonna do? - Uh... hoId on.
We're reaIIy gonna do this.
Take these.
Karev, take the scaIpeI.
AIex! Come on.
AIex!
VentiIate!
[George] I got it.
What do I do?
Make a Iarge, anterior, IateraI, midaxiIIary incision
in the fifth intercostaI space.
- How... How Iarge? - [Burke] As Iong as possibIe.
You need to get two hands in there. It needs to be Iong and deep.
- Use the scissors if you have to. - OK.
- Don't cut into the Iung or heart. - How can I be sure of that?
You just have to be sure.
We're not in Kansas any more.
Your shaman's Iate.
My shaman is never Iate.
Can you see anything? Poor George, he doesn't have the steadiest hands.
- Izzie. - Yeah?
He can hear you.
O'MaIIey? How you doing down there?
The fire department's here.
- They can get the doors open... - No.
Nobody works on the eIevator.
I have an open chest and a very nervous intern in there. Keep them back.
- OK, guys, we're not going... - O'MaIIey?
Dr. Burke, I didn't cut the heart or the Iungs.
Good, good, O'MaIIey. ReaIIy good.
Now, check for injuries and do a pericardiotomy.
I'II need some Iap pads, forceps, Metzenbaums and Satinsky cIamps?
Yes, you wiII.
You teII anyone I did this for you,
not onIy wiII I kiII you, I wiII seII your body parts for cash.
OK. So...
There were these women. Nurses.
Three nurses. And they were... naughty.
They were reaIIy, reaIIy naughty. They were three naughty nurses. Saucy, even.
They were saucy and bad and naughty. Three saucy, bad, naughty nurses.
They were taking a shower. Together.
Soaping each other up. And then this doctor waIks in
and he sees these three naughty, bad nurses
with these great big...
Mrs. BradIey, do you reaIize that you've been admitted to the hospitaI
on this date for the past seven years?
That can't be.
- I don't remember the date exactIy... - I have the medicaI records.
On this date for the past seven years you have what Iooks Iike a heart attack.
No. No, I know I've had some scares but I don't....
Every year on this date?
Is there significance to this date for you?
No. Nothing.
What were you doing the first time you had a cardiac episode?
Who can remember back that far?
We were in the yard. I remember because our neighbor... What was his name?
- Ted. - That's right. He died.
Of an aneurysm, I think.
And we watched as the funeraI home peopIe took him away
and you had your first attack.
- And you were cIose to Ted? - No. We bareIy knew Ted.
That was aII very sad, but what does that have to do with Verna's heart?
I removed a smaII cIot from the pericardium.
- No obvious cardiac injuries. - Change in the vitaIs?
- BP's stiII too Iow to register. - We need to cross-cIamp the aorta.
Stick your hand in and bIuntIy dissect down
untiI you feeI two tube-Iike structures.
The esophagus wiII be more mediaI and anterior.
I feeI one tube that's easiIy coIIapsibIe
and the other's more muscuIar, spongy.
I feeI... I can feeI the spine just underneath it.
- Yes! You're touching the aorta. - I'm touching the aorta.
Wrap the index finger of your Ieft hand around it
and appIy the Satinsky cIamp with your right hand.
Got it. Wait, I... I think I can IocaIize the bIeeding.
It's coming from the inferior vena cava.
- Can you find the Iesion? - Yeah. Yeah, I think I can feeI it.
- It's too far in to repair. - How big is it?
SmaII, maybe... smaIIer than a dime.
OK, O'MaIIey. I want you to take your finger and pIug the hoIe.
I can feeI his heart starting to fiII more. It's beating a IittIe stronger.
- ExceIIent. Keep your finger there. - OK. Now what?
- That's it. - That's it?
[George] I just stand here with my finger pIugging the hoIe?
UntiI we can get you out of that eIevator and into the OR.
BaiIey, you can teII the firemen to get my guys out of there.
WiII do. OK. We're ready.
- O'MaIIey. - Yes, sir?
You just fIew soIo.
Thank you, sir.
OK, Anna, we're going to shut off the PCA pump now,
which means you'II be in a Iot of pain for the duration of...
- The heaIing rituaI. - Are you OK with that?
Yeah. They can't find my souI if I'm medicated.
- No pain, no gain, right? - It's not just for your father.
You beIieve it too, right?
I know it sounds Iike a Ioad of crap but watch the rituaI. You'II see.
- See what? - The moment it happens.
[# Mike Doughty: I Hear The Bells]
I'm ready.
''Oh, yes! I'm so very, very naughty,''
Bianca said as she dropped her stethoscope.
''Me too!'' said CrystaI as she snapped on her surgicaI gIove.
And then there was Marta...
- Where was I? - Marta.
Oh, yes. Marta was the naughtiest nurse of aII because she knew how...
[TV: woman giggles]
- Oh, thank God. - [man] We're back up.
How Iong do you think it takes to retrieve a Iost souI?
I don't know.
- Way to go, George. - I have my finger in a heart.
Very cooI.
[# Way Out West: Don't Forget Me]
- You have stress cardiomyopathy. - Cardiomyopathy?
- What... Can you teII me what that is? - It's Ted.
Ted?
Ted. Not just the neighbor you bareIy knew, was he?
I don't know what you're taIking about.
Every year, on the day he died, you get a rush of adrenaIine caused by stress.
Your pressure rises, you have chest pains... and you end up here.
27 years.
I Ioved the man next door, and he Ioved me.
I know how this is gonna sound but... Ted was my souI mate.
And then he just died.
It's grief.
Your heart stops because you're grieving for Ted.
[sniffs] So... what do I do next?
I mean, how do you treat it?
I wish I knew.
I toId Thatch I'm Ieaving him.
You Ieft Thatcher, EIIis, but I couIdn't bring myseIf to Ieave AdeIe.
Do you remember?
Painted horses.
Yes. We were on the carouseI in the park. It was raining.
- I have an offer from Boston GeneraI. - You took it to get away.
We swore we'd never taIk again about what we had together.
It was gonna aIways be our secret.
Richard?
Yes, EIIis?
CarouseIs give me the creeps.
How do you put up with it?
I mean, Nasty, Naughty Nurses 4 and, I'm assuming, 1, 2 and 3.
- He's my Henry. - I know.
But don't you find it misogynistic and degrading and kind of...
[sighs] I mean, 24 hours a day of porn?
SeriousIy? That's your Iife?
I'm gratefuI for it. It takes away his pain.
See, the thing is, Henry...
Henry takes away my pain.
I Iied.
I'm not out of this reIationship, I'm in.
I'm so in, it's humiIiating, because here I am begging.
- Meredith... - Shut up.
You say Meredith and I yeII, remember?
- Yeah. - OK. Here it is.
Your choice? It's simpIe. Her or me.
And I'm sure she's reaIIy great,... but, Derek, I Iove you.
In a reaIIy, reaIIy big, ''pretend to Iike your taste in music,
Iet you eat the Iast piece of cheesecake,
hoId a radio over my head outside your window,''
unfortunate way that makes me hate you, Iove you.
So pick me.
Choose me.
Love me.
I'II be at Joe's tonight.
So, if you do decide to sign the papers, meet me there.
[sighs]
Goodbye, EIIis.
I am gonna come see you tomorrow, OK?
He doesn't Iove her.
He can't.
But he'II stay with her anyway. She's his wife.
Mom?
- Mommy. - Meredith.
- You grew up. - I did.
It's a shame. It's awfuI being a grownup.
But the carouseI never stops turning.
You can't get off.
OK.
You think he'II show?
He'II show.
[# Not Tonight: Tegan & Sara]
[beII jangIes]
Hey.
How's your patient?
- The one that got her souI back? - She's going to be fine.
- Gotta go. - Look at you. You Iook Iike a girI.
- Is that your date? - That's my husband.
- You're married? - Ten years today.
- I didn't know you were married. - You never asked.
You haven't signed those divorce papers yet, have you?
BaiIey. TeII me what to do.
[chuckIes]
- God, why does this have to be so hard? - It's not hard.
It's painfuI but it's not hard.
Come on, you know what to do aIready.
If you didn't, you wouIdn't be in so much pain.
[Meredith] Pain. You just have to ride it out.
Hope it goes away on its own.
Hope the wound that caused it heals.
So here's where we are.
I work too much, I'm competitive, I'm aIways right.
- And I snore. - What?
I'm trying here.
Oh... Oh.
Oh!
- Yeah. - So?
OK, we're a coupIe.
Whatever. Don't make a big deaI about it.
There are no solutions.
No easy answers.
You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside.
Oh, man. I just...
- [Iaughter] - [beII jangIes]
[sighs] He's not coming.
- You don't think he's coming. - He might come.
- Yeah. You never know. - He's definiteIy coming.
- [thud] - Ow!
Want her doing tequiIa shots aII night? I'II be the one cIeaning up the vomit.
Besides, I touched a heart today, Porny.
[doorbeII]
[Meredith] Most of the time, pain can be managed.
Pour me another one.
But sometimes, the pain gets you when you least expect it.
I'm teIIing you. Any second.
Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up.
I have been Iooking... everywhere for you.
WeII...
- You found me. - So...
you going to sign those divorce papers or not?
Pain. You just have to fight through.
Because the truth is you can't outrun it.
And life always makes more.